Lament is so important. Vital even, to find a way to get one foot in front of the other, after all that was - longing included - has gone. Your current grief and loss of voice and what you contributed to the education of young adults must surely trigger all that intertwined with memories of the one who loved you so deeply.
I'm not one for mental health tags, but I know myself, and until my work life blew up, I was healing. Complicated grief or something. When I went upstairs for the meeting where I was suspended, I thought I was there to discuss their bereavement policy (I had written about it). But they ignored that and jumped into their savagery. The cruelty floored me. They are barely human.
Both of my parents died well over 10 years ago and I still get angry at them for dieing. Sometimes I simply cannot forgive them. But it is also not like they chose it. Life happens and it is not fair. Missing them doesn't have to get easier. Anyone who says it does is ridiculous. I think there are times in life that you want and need the base that a good parent provided. When it is not there, you are angry that they are gone. Is it infantile? Perhaps. But I don't care.
Your father was a great man and this piece is a really wonderful tribute to him. I was very touched.
And your dad is a marvel
Thank u
Lament is so important. Vital even, to find a way to get one foot in front of the other, after all that was - longing included - has gone. Your current grief and loss of voice and what you contributed to the education of young adults must surely trigger all that intertwined with memories of the one who loved you so deeply.
I'm not one for mental health tags, but I know myself, and until my work life blew up, I was healing. Complicated grief or something. When I went upstairs for the meeting where I was suspended, I thought I was there to discuss their bereavement policy (I had written about it). But they ignored that and jumped into their savagery. The cruelty floored me. They are barely human.
Very cruel. Animals are kinder to each other
Despite your profound grief, his memory is indeed a blessing.
Both of my parents died well over 10 years ago and I still get angry at them for dieing. Sometimes I simply cannot forgive them. But it is also not like they chose it. Life happens and it is not fair. Missing them doesn't have to get easier. Anyone who says it does is ridiculous. I think there are times in life that you want and need the base that a good parent provided. When it is not there, you are angry that they are gone. Is it infantile? Perhaps. But I don't care.